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2003-05-01
Oh man. what a day. i napped too long. i tipped over backwards while i was in riding in the butler van sitting in a desk chair drinking a diet coke. i saved the coke, don't worry. you know me. anyway... must. let. go. it's not healthy to obsess, but it's really been a pattern for so long. it's excused a lot of behavior and i don't think it's going to work anymore. which is good. things are looking so great and im happy. why i can't trust that, i don't know, but i should. i'm worth it and i deserve it. here's to getting it figured out though. the boy and i went to pick up my bike last night. the woman who helped us in layaway is about a thousand years old, god bless her heart. i worked with her for about 5 years and she didn't remember me. i've always felt sorry for her because she's been ridden hard and put away wet a few too many times. this poor woman had two kids, one died when she was a baby and the other died as a young adult. she and her husband went through an ugly divorce when her children were young. she lives in a tiny apartment in an ugly part of town and god forbid anything should happen to the kmart because she would probably be on the street. i hope she finds some peace. well, it's past my bedtime i think.
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